Sleep Deprivation.

 

I.Cant.Sleep

Were was the warning label that read “Warning, during boot camp, navy wives will incur sleep deprivation or insomnia. Oh I guess the Recruiter failed to mention that little tid-bit as well. Here I am at almost……2am…or 0200. WIDE awake……I managed to clean my house…then think about when I will next need to clean my house, then write my sailor another letter..(this makes like 20 pages, and I still have yet to retrieve his address to send these letter to) Write a poem/song, do my budget…..and play hide and seek with Charlie and pups. This really sucks, because I am really grumpy when I do not get my sleep. Tomorrow I will definitely need to stop for some Emergency coffee.

I would like to share the poem/song I wrote. It expressed how I am feeling at this very moment. It is a little depressing but it is also beautiful….. Please tell me what you think.

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When the light gleams bright, I might look alright,
but beneath,lies a fading and flickering light.

Constant motion seems to soothe my soul.
but as the motion stops,I fall into my black hole.

Sucking the life from me, stealing my bliss,
come back to me soon, save me from all of this.

I’m lost and crumbling When your not around,
I feel like I’m falling but never hit the ground.

:::I cant wait for our souls to swim again,
I’ll smile through the pain and the misery til then.
I don’t know how much longer I can stand,
So hurry please soon, and take my hand. :::

When the day is dark, and the blackness consume,
I begin to drown in all of my gloom.

Desolate is what has taken over my soul,
its impossible like this, to ever feel whole.

Everything around me screams your name,
I try to enjoy things, but it’s just not the same.

From the day you left you took my lucidity with you,
you kept my light, my glow with you too.

:::I cant wait for our souls to swim again,
I’ll smile through the pain and the misery til then.
I don’t know how much longer I can stand,
So hurry please soon, and take my hand.:::

My glow, my light has been stripped from me,
like a bird in a cage, that can’t fly free.

Come back to me, and fill my bare holes.
I swim in darkness till we unify our souls.

-Leslie Mayol

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